11/29/23 | Journal Thoughts
I struggle with perfectionism and today was the day I finally admitted it to myself.
I spent 5 hours record and rerecording an Instagram reel because it was not good enough.
The whole entire time, I kept thinking about how it would be perceived by others lead me to critique every little thing about it.
Finally, when I went to post it, my network crashed and the entire video got deleted.
I decided well maybe it sucked so bad, that instagram had to puke it out of its mouth.
Immediately, the Holy Spirit brought me back to a phrase I heard in a sermon on YouTube:
“Perfectionism is rooted in the Fear of Man while Excellency is rooted in the Fear of God.”
Ouch… well, when you really think about it… that’s not wrong
Perfectionism is about the fear of failure, while striving for excellency is the urge for success.
And in success there is failure. It’s part of the process that we have to accept in order to grow in whatever it is we are doing or in who we are becoming.
I was so caught up in the audience that I thought my content was for that I forgot the one that I glory for… Jesus
God does not want us operating from a place of fear but of power, of love, and of a sound mind.
In Colossians 3:23 He says:
Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men,
In the end God will not say “Well Perfect, my Good and Faithful servant” He will say “Well Done….”