12/2/23 | Journal Thoughts
I did something against God’s will, I quit my Job even though he told me to endure until the appointed time.
I could not take it anymore, my mental health was degrading bad, and so was my faith.
What came after was guilt, shame and negative self talk, revealing the root issue of all my problems…. Unbelief
Unbelief was the reason I took this job in the first place and the same reason I quit instead of enduring with God’s strength.
Unbelief made a way for disobedience to creep in and take over…
just like in the garden…
when Adam and Eve took the word of the serpent over the word of God.
Now, I am not advocating that people stay in situations that jeopardize their mental health, physical health, etc. but I am talking about the importance of obeying the voice of God even when it doesn’t align with our will’s and ways.
God desires obedience out of us not sacrifice
1 Samuel 15:22Samuel said, “Does the Lord have as much delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices As in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than a sacrifice, and to pay attention is better than the fat of rams."
Obedience is not a punishment, its an opportunity for closer intimacy with the father,
He commands us to obey His word because His word is the way, truth and life. It is sustains us, leads us and teaches us in the LORD.
If you are walking in guilt and shame due to your disobedience, I want to whisper something the LORD told me as I was beating myself up for not following his word.
He said: “I am a Just God, but my mercies are new every morning and you have been forgiven in my son.”
You don’t have to live in shame and guilt, repent, and accept His forgiveness today.
